You tried a particular trade and it didn’t work out.
Now you’re left with what you started with, but with more experience.
Then add various #s of people and plan out what you would do.
Do you realize that means you’re better off than you were before you entered the relationship? You’re now standing at a point higher than you were at before the relationship (and either higher or lower than when you were in the relationship depending on how you look at it). Now, if a relationship happens to come along which will make you happier – Okee dokie! A lot of pain comes as a result of not knowing yourself and what you want.
Just stop thinking about it and start doing the things you love. You’ll never get into a relationship again and do the things you love until you die. That’s because not knowing creates a lot of uncertainity in situations, which paralyzes you.
The only problem is, this person doesn’t actually exist.
He/she is a projection of your idealized version of the person you like.